nothingness

I don't know what I was thinking, but for some odd reason, I thought if I started a new blog, open a new e-mail address, re-vamp this and that that things would start to change or crash or SOMETHING.

Well obviously things did't work out that way.

I feel that everything is so still. No drama, no newness, no gossip, no excitement, nothing. It's just a load of nothingness. It's wake-up, do this, do that, eat, work, some more of this and that, and sleep. There's no excitement and no spark.

2009 was all shit after shit after shit that I just assumed 2010 would make up for it by be utterly amazing, but apparently, it decided not to be an ass by being boring.

YES, IT'S SOOO DREADFULLY BORING.

Then again, it might be all the detoxes that I've been on - shopping and boys - which makes for very little opportunity for me to cause some chaos. I have resorted to texting people randomly at night for a means of distraction. It's so sad!

And yes, I am trying to amuse myself but nothing is amusing. NOTHING.

What to do, what to do.