break from life

I'm going to take a quick break from real life and indulge myself a la Sin City! See/talk to you loves in four days.

This is to hoping things will start to look brighter and be more exciting when I come back. OH, and here is also to hoping that I win the jackpot of some sort. I don't ask for much, $500 is all I need, but $5000 would be better.

actually pudgy

During a conversation about eating amazing food that are disgustingly fat-laden:

- vhn [ ] says: (1:52:58 AM)
UR SO SKINNY
- vhn [ ] says: (1:53:04 AM)
well not skinny

FML. He means that I am pudgy (and sadly I have to agree). Honesty is not exactly the best policy in this case.

nothingness

I don't know what I was thinking, but for some odd reason, I thought if I started a new blog, open a new e-mail address, re-vamp this and that that things would start to change or crash or SOMETHING.

Well obviously things did't work out that way.

I feel that everything is so still. No drama, no newness, no gossip, no excitement, nothing. It's just a load of nothingness. It's wake-up, do this, do that, eat, work, some more of this and that, and sleep. There's no excitement and no spark.

2009 was all shit after shit after shit that I just assumed 2010 would make up for it by be utterly amazing, but apparently, it decided not to be an ass by being boring.

YES, IT'S SOOO DREADFULLY BORING.

Then again, it might be all the detoxes that I've been on - shopping and boys - which makes for very little opportunity for me to cause some chaos. I have resorted to texting people randomly at night for a means of distraction. It's so sad!

And yes, I am trying to amuse myself but nothing is amusing. NOTHING.

What to do, what to do.

a new start

This is how my heart currently feels at the moment - not so much the beautiful part, but rather the young and broke.

I know I am broke because I always give into my reckless whims.

There has been such an abundance of nothingness in my life that I feel I need to change it up.

New attitude, new spending habits, new everything.

So voila!